2 years later..

Hey there, if someone is still reading this!

It’s been a WHILE since I last posted in this blog and things have changed. 2 years ago I was about to leave for my exchange year, I wasn’t fully ready for that experience and the first few months were almost a nightmare, but in the end it ended up being the best thing I’ve ever done and Malaysia feels like a second home. I won’t write too much about it because I really don’t feel like to and because it is not really the point of this blog post. 2 years later I have changed and looking back at the posts in this blog, I think I did for the best. These two years were packed, between my year abroad and graduating high school my mind was focused on different things and I literally drifted off the whole “trying to be a polyglot” thing. Not that I’ve lost my interest in languages, it is very much still there and I can proudly say that Malay is now part of my “language list”, but my approach towards languages is completely different now and still I am trying to make it fit into my current life. After graduating high school with 100\100 I was confused. I’ve never really talked about it in this blog but I have I huge passion for drawing and visual storytelling, literally I could stay hours doing it, it is my passion and I would love one day to have a job in the artistic field. This summer was difficult under many points of view because I cannot afford art school and I felt terrible, I still feel it is very unfair that I worked so hard during high school, that I have a basically perfect student curriculum and received no merits whatsoever for my scolastic archievements. Anyways, 2 years ago I would heve probably complained about it forever without actually do nothing to get where I want to go. And here comes the whole point of this blog post, I am not the same anymore and it is difficult for me to keep a blog that carries so many memories of the “old me”. Not that I have completely revolutioned my mind, I am still the same but take all of the thoughts that I had 2 year ago and put it into an almost 20 years old person with a bigger baggage of expirience on their back. I am writing this with no nostalgia, I like the person I am now and I kind of admire the 16 years old me who wanted to be the best despite all the problems they were facing. Now I write to you from England, where I hope I have a better chance to make my dreams come true, and step by step I know I can do it!

I actually don’t know if I want to keep on with this blog. I kind of  want to but at the same time I don’t, I feel so far away from the whole concept of this blog but at the same time I missed sharing my journey through learning new languages. So far, all I can say is that I cannot really promise anything to you. If I will continue please feel free to follow me and share whatever with me. If I won’t, well thank you for reading it so far, if you are interested in the more artistic\cultural side of the internet me you can follow me on instagram @benniederhamster !

Thank you for reading untill here, I hope you all are having a nice day!




Just because this is still a language based blog I thought I could do a little update to my languages list, just for fun!

Italian – native speaker

English- still struggling a bit with some points but I guess I can say I am fluent, I understand and speak without problems except few mistakes.

Japanese- It has been ages since I last opened a Japanese text book and actually spoke it but I can still understand most of it without problems. When I listen to songs in Japanese I get like 85% of the lyrics sometimes. Movies, I can understand most of the spoken conversations. Still I need to brush up a lot.

Korean- Same with Japanese honestly, maybe a little bit less. I’ve finished an intermediate level textbook and read manhwas with little difficulty but still I feel very much like a biginner.

Malay- I am intermediate. I understand it almost completely except very specific vocabulary. I can speak it with very few problems, even if sometimes I mix it with Manglish.

Chinese- No news on this side. If a programme on tv is subbed with hanzi I can get most of what is being said(power of the kanji!), and some bits of spoken. I cannot speak it very well though, tones are still a pain in the …

French- Studied that in school. I am very much school level at it. I can understand it, spoken and written but my pronounciation is awful and my vocabulary limited.

German- See above with French.




Wow. My procastinating skills are well known already, but I’ve really almost forgot that I have a blog where I can write… STUFF!

Anyway, I don’t much to say. Just.. look up ^^`

You know, for freaking once I won something and it is a year to challenge myself. Back in September I decided to take part in a scolarship program for high school students. I did many tests, some interviews, and waited months and months for a response. And this bring us to February 20th, when I recieved the e-mail I was waiting. ONE YEAR ABROAD, IN MALAYSIA. WOW.

In these last few months I’ve been busy. Between school and preparation to my departure I seriously risked my sanity >w<  But anyway here I am, ready to leave in 23 days. Am I really ready? The answer is NO. Noppity no. Nope. Nein. Non. 

I mean I am extremely excited to leave and live this wonderful experience but at the same time I don’t want to go and leave all my family and friends behind. Living for this journey is also growing up and , as the eternal Peter Pan I am, it’s incredibly scary. I will stay in a local family and attend normal school so I’ll have to do my best to integrate. 

Last month there was a huge meeting for all the students who are leaving for Asia this summer. I had a lot of fun! I got the opportunity to meet some of my internet friends(we live in different cities and never had the possibility to meet), also I attended many lessons about the Malaysian culture. Frankly speaking, Malaysia is a beautiful place and I can’t wait to confirm that with my own eyes but at the same time it’s scary. Please, do not misunderstand me! A culture can never be wrong or right, just different and that’s what worries me a little bit about it. I am afraid to not be able to adapt and therefore to seem rude, not make any friend and be left alone… you know … I guess it’s normal… I hope it is ^^` 

Time is passing soooo soooo fast, and I haven’t packed yet.. I don’t really know what to bring with me… wow It has been a while since I last wrote here. Feels great doing it again though!! 

Wow, it’s 00.30 am. I better go to bed now~ 

Goodnight~~ See you soon!! 

I wish…

I wish I had failed more in my childhood.

Failure scares me and other people’s expetations make me nervous.

Really, I am just a human.

I really wish people would stop seeing me as the “super woman” they think I am because I am not.

Failing and disappointing the people around me is what I fear the most. I am not perfect and a part of me doesn’t want to accept it.

It’s scary.

There and Back Again + Let It Go



It’s been a while! I wonder if you guys have wondered where I’ve been all this time, probably not but ,anyway, I am here again! I am not the type that suddently leaves without a reason and my reason this time was SCHOOL >w< I don’t know how it works in your contry but here January-February along with May-June are the worst months for every student. 3 or 2 tests tests everyday for weeks, time for yourself? None… Aside that I am ill again and I haven’t had any interesting thing to say to you. I believe that this kind of blog(you know, like mine…) should be first of all informative and helpful for those who read it. Not that I have something against personal blogs, I also write pretty personal posts too, but I prefer focusing on languages and stuff. And, come on, who says we can’t write personal things without putting languages in between??

*The title “There and Back Again” is not mine(of course!), nor it has a particular meaning in this occasion, I just wanted to use it 😀 


Since I said that along with personal things we should also add something informative to this blog, I decided to share with you a song I’ve really been into in these last few months~ 

First of all guys, have you seen Frozen? You know, the new Disney animated film 🙂 Well, I did and I fell in love ♥ I know I seem pretty childish, indeed I think I am, but this film was really really great that I went 3 times at the cinema to watch it (I am hopeless!!). Like many of you already know, the soundtrack won several prizes and the main song “Let It Go” is nominated as Best Original Song for this year’s Academy Awards. Given that I love this movie with my whole heart today I wanted to talk about the song. I decided to translate the various version of the song into English and Italian, I already did Korean, Japanese and Chinese and since my blog is mainly about those languages I decided to post a little vocabs list for every version of the song I’ve translated , so you can learn some new vocabulary too~


ありのまま= the truth, fact, as it is

姿=すがた= figure, shape, appearance

囁く=ささやく= to whisper, to murmur

打ち明ける=うちあける= to be frank, to speak one’s mind, to open one’s heart 

戸惑い=とまどい= confusion, wanderment

悩む=なやむ= to be worried, to be troubled 

少しも=すこしも= anything, (with negative sentence) not one bit

冷える=ひえる= to grow cold, to get chilly, to cool down 

ほっと= feeling relieved 

Those are the new words I learnt translating this song, did you know them already? 


little ps. before leaving: Yesterday I turned 17 ~ I hope this year to be good 😀

SO~~ Bye bye guys~ 再见~~!!!


Time… what a strange thing …

I feel like this will probably be a “Old Year Considerations” post, probably incredibly boring, I say sorry in advance^^`

I’m passing all my time thinking lately, trying to understand what is actually happening to me recently.. I am 16 (soon 17), a normal messed up teenager who has no idea of what’s going on aroud her. This 2013 has been a total Purgatory for me, too many bad things happened to consider it a good year and at the same time there are too many good things to consider it a bad one. And this makes me confused, way too many things occurred too fast and this overthinking is making me going insane.

This year I have:

~Met awesome and incredible people. Some of them made me both happy and sad

~Let go a person who didn’t deserve(in my opinion) my friendship anymore

~Applied for a year abroad with AFS

~Started Korean and Chinese (♥)

~Read great books suggested by the most unexpected person

~Gone through illness almost all the year long..

~Cried over someone

~Spoken with foreign people in real life

~Been depressed

~Lost weight

~Found out new music

~Attended a Russian and Romanian course

~Written my to my very first pen pal

~Visited new places

~Fought a lot with my family

~Gone to the doctor’s surgery way too many times

~Been picked because of my appearence and my lifestyle

~Started a blog, Facebook and Twitter

~Shed too many tears

~Hurt some people I love..

I don’t think I will promote this post, I guess it will stay here, anyone can read it but I prefer not to advertise it.. It was … a sort of solace post.. If you read untill here well, thank you. Not that I am that proud of what I wrote…

I wish you all a good 2014, I am positive over this one!


  • Time passes day by day, the old day falls on us like dust, when the new day comes, don’t shake off the dust of yesterday, as to our lives they are wealth.





あたし、まだ休みがないけどストだから学校に行ってない。。最近、本当に忙しくて、悲しかったさ・・ ちょっと家族の中問題あって、気分あんまり楽しくない。。でもね、冬休みが来てるから元気に出してみるね!


ってか・・・最近、やる気ないからあたしの日本語めっちゃ下手になった-.- 今、日本語で書いてるんけど。。。どうして今日日本語が出来ないの? これは本当のベイシックな日本語。。なんて最悪なーぁ

まあ、実は勉強あんまりしなかった今週はね^^‘ そろそろ怠け者になってるんね・・ でも、あたしはね、大変な女の子だと思うu_u 6語の外国語が勉強するからたまに頭めちゃくちゃになったりするね!

そして、昨晩雪女の物語インターネットで読んではじめてw子供のため物語なのに。。。ww 難しいだった。。漢字勉強しなくちゃ、ほんまに>.< 皆、漢字の練習のおススメ本ある?知ったら、コメントでぜひ書いてね^^

じゃ~ ここで終わると思う!

読んでくれてありがとうございます~ 皆さん、いい一日を!


Some useful resources for Chinese

Wow…. me… actually writing a “useful” post…. so rare…

Hello everyone!


Today I want to talk about Chinese, which I’ve never talked about before…Not that I have too much to say, I decided to do HSK 1or 2 and I am super anxious about it >w< Chinese is a wonderful language and I enjoy studying it a lot but an exam (even at a low level) needs dedication and time, which I don’t have. In the very first two HSK the biggest effort is memorizing the given vocabulary and knowing very basic grammar. I’ve memorized almost all the first 150 vocabs for the first exam and I know basic grammar, the exam is in June so I could also learn the level 2 one too, maybe…

Anyway if you are studying Chinese I have a list of sites that could help you with your learnig~~!! I hope you’ll like it!


Chinese Keyboard Traditional/Simplified Imput Here it is, my best friend! I don’t know you guys, but my PC is pretty old and doesn’t support all the east asian languages so for Chinese I have to use an online keyboard. You can find various good ones online, but I like this one for having both Simplified and Traditional Chinese. Personally I use Simplified Chinese more, but since I have friends from Taiwan and friends who learn Traditional Chinese it’s a very useful tool for me. 

Yes Chinese Pretty simple website for beginners! I mostly use it for vocabulary, I like it because it teaches you words not only with the translation but with sample sentence, putting the words in a context ^^

As for grammar I am using all Italian resources (If you are interested though click here, I am using this book right now and I think it’s pretty cool!) but  I have a grammar in English ⇒ Basic Chinese I haven’t read it all yet but for what I could see it is pretty far from basic^^ I suggest it, and also there are exercises if you want to practice!

Taiwanese Tv most of the times I can’t understand a single word of what they are saying but it’s a good exercise to practice listening and to enjoy foreign tv shows or dramas. Also in this site there is the Japanese and Korean tv

And here some of my favourite Chinese related Youtube channels:

Happy Chinese Series A funny sit-com of a foreign girl in China. It is mostly for advanced learners but thanks to the English sub you can try following the scenes. At the end of every episode there’s a short explenation of one Chinese expression, 你好 or 您好 for example!

Fiona Tian I learnt tones from her basicly ^^ I like how she explains!

learnchinesenow I love this channel. Interesting videos about china and Chinese: from basic vocabulary to poems and idioms *^*

Off the Great Wall Parodies about Chinese(Asian) culture, I think they are really funny. Also in their channer you can find useful information about Chinese language^^


I guess that’s all for today~~!! 


Do you have any good Chinese website or books to suggest?